kurallar, \u00f6rf ve adetler, i\u015fler g\u00fc\u00e7lerle dolu. \u00c7izersiniz \u00f6nce, biraz\u0131n\u0131 istedi\u011finiz, biraz\u0131n\u0131
ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n iste\u011fi do\u011frultusunda, boyars\u0131n\u0131z. Derken, o g\u00fcn gelir\u2026ve a\u015fk, ne \u00e7izdi\u011finize
bakmazs\u0131z\u0131n, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 boyal\u0131 eliyle tuvalinizdeki her \u015feyi boyar. Art\u0131k ne siz, ne sizin
kurdu\u011funuz d\u00fcnyan\u0131z\u0131n rengi, \u015fekli g\u00f6r\u00fcnmektedir. Her \u015fey a\u015fk\u0131n eliyle silinmi\u015f, bozulmu\u015f,
de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015ftir. \u015ea\u015f\u0131r\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z \u00f6nce, anlamazs\u0131n\u0131z, ne oldu birden diye! Hele ki tan\u0131m\u0131yorsan\u0131z a\u015fk\u0131
\u00f6nceden; bakar kal\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 boyal\u0131 ele ve b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ize\u2026 Bazen beklersiniz, boya u\u00e7up
gider diye\u2026 Hatta bazen dua edersiniz. Kimse g\u00f6rmeden, \u015fu boya kurusa, d\u00fc\u015fse\u2026ak\u0131p kaybolsa
da kurtulsam\u2026eskisi gibi olsam\u2026yine eski ben olsam\u2026. E\u011fer a\u015fk, ger\u00e7ek a\u015fksa, bunlar\u0131n hepsi
bo\u015fa \u00e7abad\u0131r ve her \u015fey i\u00e7in ge\u00e7 kalm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r, zaten bu i\u015fte erken davranmak ve \u00f6nlem almak
gibi bir \u015fe\u00e7enek yoktur. Siz se\u00e7ilmi\u015f, \u00f6rnek g\u00f6sterilecek, ender insanlardan birisinizdir art\u0131k\u2026
Ne i\u00e7in mi?\u2026 Sonsuz ac\u0131lar i\u00e7inde, en derin mutluluk hazlar\u0131 tatmak, gece ve g\u00fcnd\u00fcz boyu azap
i\u00e7inde, tek bir ki\u015fiyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek, \u00f6zlemek, hayal etmek ve beklemek, yani art\u0131k yaln\u0131z o ki\u015fiyi
ve o ki\u015fiyle ya\u015famak i\u00e7in. Vazge\u00e7mek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil, unutmak m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil, hi\u00e7 olmam\u0131\u015f
farz etmek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildir. Belki de, hi\u00e7 sizin olmayacak ama sizin kendinizi
varoldu\u011funuzdan beri bir b\u00fct\u00fcn hissetti\u011finiz ve bu y\u00fczden, onsuz, kendinizi hep yar\u0131m
hissedece\u011finiz insana duydu\u011funuz, her an artan \u00f6zlem ve her daim kolunuzda bir hayalle dans
edip durursunuz. G\u00fcnler geceye, geceler g\u00fcne d\u00f6ner, derken g\u00fcn aya, ay y\u0131la ba\u011flan\u0131r;
ya\u015flan\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z ama sevdan\u0131z ya\u015flanmaz, o hep ayn\u0131 yerde, ayn\u0131 zamanda kal\u0131r. Sevdi\u011fini bekler,
belki bug\u00fcn belki yar\u0131n diye\u2026. Hep ayn\u0131 \u00fcmitle, ama bo\u015f yolu g\u00f6zlemekten yorgun g\u00f6zlerle\u2026\u2026
\u0130steseniz de, art\u0131k geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f imkans\u0131zd\u0131r. Ta ki zaman ge\u00e7ip, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n rengi soluncaya,
kaybolmu\u015f gibi (ki ger\u00e7ekte, tamamen yok olmas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildir!) oluncaya kadar, bu
\u0131zd\u0131rap dolu bekleyi\u015f s\u00fcrer. Sonras\u0131nda ise, sizden geriye bir \u015feyler, elinizde kolunuzda g\u00fc\u00e7,
g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fczde istek kalm\u0131\u015fsa, ba\u015flars\u0131n\u0131z tekrar \u00e7iziktirmeye\u2026.k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 elin bozdu\u011fu d\u00fczenin ac\u0131s\u0131,
yine olur mu? korkusu, i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e, yine olsun! gizli arzusu ve ge\u00e7mi\u015fin \u00f6zlemi, her bir
h\u00fccrenizde\u2026.\u00e7izersiniz elinizden geldi\u011fince\u2026.bu sefer daha az \u00f6zenli ama daha dikkatlice\u2026olur
da\u2026..ya k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 boyal\u0131 el..!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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<\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Bir tablo \u00e7izersiniz, o g\u00fcne kadar ki, t\u00fcm hayat\u0131n\u0131z boyunca; k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck evler, mutlu mutsuz aileler,kurallar, \u00f6rf ve adetler, i\u015fler g\u00fc\u00e7lerle dolu. \u00c7izersiniz \u00f6nce, biraz\u0131n\u0131 istedi\u011finiz, biraz\u0131n\u0131ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n iste\u011fi do\u011frultusunda, boyars\u0131n\u0131z. Derken, o g\u00fcn gelir\u2026ve a\u015fk, ne \u00e7izdi\u011finizebakmazs\u0131z\u0131n, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 boyal\u0131 eliyle tuvalinizdeki her \u015feyi boyar. Art\u0131k ne siz, ne sizinkurdu\u011funuz d\u00fcnyan\u0131z\u0131n rengi, \u015fekli g\u00f6r\u00fcnmektedir. Her \u015fey a\u015fk\u0131n …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":83,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-82","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-sohbet"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gulmisal.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/82","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gulmisal.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gulmisal.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulmisal.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulmisal.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=82"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulmisal.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/82\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1453,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulmisal.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/82\/revisions\/1453"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulmisal.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/83"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.gulmisal.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=82"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulmisal.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=82"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.gulmisal.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=82"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}